Has it really been a week already?!
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practicingbeingmyself12/2-12/8
Pokemon of the Day: Cubone
I'd wanted to post every one to two days but it's been a week since my last post! Darn! I was in a strange mood last week, I was very anxious. The outlook for this week is also anxious, but now I'm anxious about something else, so it doesn't feel as bad as it would if I was going onto my second week of worrying about the same thing. I won't go into more detail about that right now because I'm trying to write this as quickly as possible. And also, this isn't the place for that sort of talk anyway.
I ordered myself some new underwear because it was Black Friday and they were on sale. They were apparently delivered today but are nowhere to be found... do you think somebody else got my underwear by accident?!? I literally feel like a cartoon character! This is so embarrassing!!
I didn't do ANY of the crafting I wanted to last week either! I did, however, make my Pokémon Advent calendar and have been enjoying opening my little surprise every morning! I also made a paper chain to count down the days until my sister comes home using the leftover scrapbook paper from the Advent calendar project.
This week at work we're having *Strategic Planning Meetings*, which means I'll be in meetings all day tomorrow and most of Wednesday. I don't know what to expect really, but my coworkers tell me our department is pretty irrelevant for most of the meeting. Still, I'm a little nervous! The company president sent us all a message saying to "come with an open mind and be prepared to contribute." The contribute part is what has me scratching my head. Me? Contribute? Contribute what?! I'm literally 22 years old and am paid to make slime and paint pictures! I don't have an opinion on anything!!! Please don't make me talk!!!
This weekend, I've been freaking out because the crush I've had for a year is NOT going away. There's something especially mortifying about this because it's my *coworker!* Well, it's a little different because although we work in the same building, I am a corporate employee and they work for the studio location, which helps my situation because then I don't work with them on anything. Still, this definitely feels like an unprofessional inconvenience, which makes me freak out about it. And what if they think I'm just weird and quiet and all the dopey interactions we have because I'm such a goof make them think I'm a loser?! What if they just think I'm a joke?! What if they think I SMELL BAD?!?! Ohhhh my god, some of the most embarrassing things ever happen to me and it's always when they're talking to me! The thought of them just make me want to disappear and never talk at work again ohhhhhhh my God!!!!!!!! No, no, they're very nice, and also very awkward, and they actually seem more open to talking to me than anyone else. I shouldn't fret so much about these things. Besides, it can never go anywhere anyway and honestly, good.
My mom will be home soon and she wants to put up the Christmas tree tonight. For whatever reason, I don't want to. What's wrong with me? I love Christmas! Maybe she'll let me put on Pokémon while we do it...
Also! My number one artist this year was... get ready for it! ...One Direction... Is anyone surprised? I don't think so.
Pokemon of the Day: Cubone
I'd wanted to post every one to two days but it's been a week since my last post! Darn! I was in a strange mood last week, I was very anxious. The outlook for this week is also anxious, but now I'm anxious about something else, so it doesn't feel as bad as it would if I was going onto my second week of worrying about the same thing. I won't go into more detail about that right now because I'm trying to write this as quickly as possible. And also, this isn't the place for that sort of talk anyway.
I ordered myself some new underwear because it was Black Friday and they were on sale. They were apparently delivered today but are nowhere to be found... do you think somebody else got my underwear by accident?!? I literally feel like a cartoon character! This is so embarrassing!!
I didn't do ANY of the crafting I wanted to last week either! I did, however, make my Pokémon Advent calendar and have been enjoying opening my little surprise every morning! I also made a paper chain to count down the days until my sister comes home using the leftover scrapbook paper from the Advent calendar project.
This week at work we're having *Strategic Planning Meetings*, which means I'll be in meetings all day tomorrow and most of Wednesday. I don't know what to expect really, but my coworkers tell me our department is pretty irrelevant for most of the meeting. Still, I'm a little nervous! The company president sent us all a message saying to "come with an open mind and be prepared to contribute." The contribute part is what has me scratching my head. Me? Contribute? Contribute what?! I'm literally 22 years old and am paid to make slime and paint pictures! I don't have an opinion on anything!!! Please don't make me talk!!!
This weekend, I've been freaking out because the crush I've had for a year is NOT going away. There's something especially mortifying about this because it's my *coworker!* Well, it's a little different because although we work in the same building, I am a corporate employee and they work for the studio location, which helps my situation because then I don't work with them on anything. Still, this definitely feels like an unprofessional inconvenience, which makes me freak out about it. And what if they think I'm just weird and quiet and all the dopey interactions we have because I'm such a goof make them think I'm a loser?! What if they just think I'm a joke?! What if they think I SMELL BAD?!?! Ohhhh my god, some of the most embarrassing things ever happen to me and it's always when they're talking to me! The thought of them just make me want to disappear and never talk at work again ohhhhhhh my God!!!!!!!! No, no, they're very nice, and also very awkward, and they actually seem more open to talking to me than anyone else. I shouldn't fret so much about these things. Besides, it can never go anywhere anyway and honestly, good.
My mom will be home soon and she wants to put up the Christmas tree tonight. For whatever reason, I don't want to. What's wrong with me? I love Christmas! Maybe she'll let me put on Pokémon while we do it...
Also! My number one artist this year was... get ready for it! ...One Direction... Is anyone surprised? I don't think so.
